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How do you explain this kind of loss to someone? Flashback to August 25th, 2020. At 8.5 weeks my world was shattered with the spoken words “Your baby has no heartbeat”. It was a routine ultrasound. No pain, no reason to worry. Even Adam wasn’t there. I stared up at the ceiling and begged GodContinue reading “The Death of Someone I never Met”

I said I would talk about how it is 4 days after embryo transfer but I just can’t wait that long. Today has been wreaking havoc with my emotions. I wish everyone would stop asking me if I feel any different. No- absolutely not and that is what is reducing me to a sniveling messContinue reading “Bad feeling”

Ok… so I haven’t updated in a long time. So many things have transpired let me try to catch you up to date. We just finished our first cycle of IVF. Yes- that super long process of sticking needles in your stomach three times a day. I counted 24 shots in about 11 days! ThenContinue reading “Update 7/17 First FET IVF cycle”

Sometimes, I’m ashamed of my ability to cry at the sight of a baby or hearing a baby cry. Maybe we are conditioned to look down on weakness. Is it that subconsciously we believe that only the strong will survive, and to survive in the world we must get rid of an outward appearance ofContinue reading “It’s ok to cry”

I hate for people to think they are walking on eggshells when I talk to them about my infertility but there are certain words and phrases make me cringe when I hear them. Most people have no idea how to make me feel better and don’t know what to say. Usually it’s not malicious inContinue reading “What not to say to someone with Infertility”